I've made it through almost two weeks at the office already. Hard to believe, right? I love seeing my friends here... but I miss my kids like crazy! It's difficult seeing them for just a few hours a day and then praying the weekend would come sooner. I'm sure we'll all adjust eventually. McKenna still is missing our Week O' Fun (see my last post) she asks me every morning, "what are we going to do today mommy?" with some expectancy in her voice. Sadly, I can't say we'll be going to the zoo or a museum any time soon.
I've been telling myself there's a greater purpose to what I do at work besides my job just taking time from my family. I get to help patients and other people here, and I get to show people the gift that I have in God. What a privilege that is! I can show other people all day long that there's something different about me, that I have a peace that can only be found in a relationship with Jesus. I can show people that being a Christian doesn't mean that I can't be fun to be around, or that they can't be themselves around me. I can choose to be an example, I can choose to be there for them, I can choose to listen and respond accordingly. I am really blessed to be here. I hope the people I work with feel blessed because of me... because that's my ultimate goal. I want them to know that I love them and that God loves them too. "By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another." -John 13:35
Keep praying for me people. I sure need it. I feel a lot of guilt about not staying home with my kids, and I know that's not from God. I feel a pressure from other people to conform to some idyllic image of what a mom should be, and I know that's not from God either. Please pray that I would be discerning, that I would make an impact where I am, and that I would follow God's lead... wherever that may be.